Friday, March 24, 2006
I am posting two pics here of me that are most unflattering. The curler one was just a couple of years ago. But the other one, is painful. I have NEVER shown this photo to anyone. The only people who have ever seen it are immediate family. I was a horribly ugly kid. Red hair, freckles, crooked teeth, big nose, and to make matters worse, dirt poor. I was made fun of by other kids at school so badly that I would come home, lay on my bed and cry. I hated myself. I hated the way I looked, and most of all, I hated having to face those same kids every day at school.

This photo is so painful for me that I almost didn't put it up here for fear of being made fun of again. That's a pain that you don't want to feel again, you know? And no matter how old you get, you never forget what it felt like.

But I'm doing it for Sign Gurl. Because I love her. Yes, she's a blogger. We have never met in person but here's what I know about her. She is real and honest. That makes her vulnerable. She loves her family. She's fun, and now she's worried that if she goes to the blog meet in Michigan people may not like her as well because she's (in her words) a big girl.

Sign Gurl, you bet everybody puts their best pics up. It's not just you. That's just common sense. Nobody looks good 24/7. We all try to make our best presentation because sadly, we DO get judged by how we look. And nobody knows better than me how bad that sucks.
I won't be in Michigan with you but I will make myself vulnerable for you. That's what friends do. You go with your heart. And do what's comfortable. I'd be there with you if I could.
(If I get made fun of again....you'll be here, right?)





 
posted by Crabby at 3:48 PM |


17 Comments:


At 3/24/2006 4:18 PM, Blogger MilkMaid

You are PRECIOUS..in and out. And you know I mean that.

SignGirl...from one big girl to another, you are beautiful. All of you. I don't post, cuz I've been up to HERE in work and shit, but I have been reading your blog...you GO and have a good time.

I know your fear, I was there several years ago when I met a net pal. Don't waste your time fretting. I am envious of you guys meeting. Have a great time!

And pictures.

And Pammie..I love you my sweet buddy.

 

At 3/24/2006 4:31 PM, Blogger Crabby

I love you too. That's one good thing that's come out of all the many hours I've spent on this blasted computer.

Sign Gurl, Milky, Roxie, and I all have your back. I don't know how Roxie grew up but trust me, Milky and I can handle most anything that comes round the bend. LOL!

And then, there's Ethel. If she sounds in too, you might as well have the whole marine corp with you.

They're gonna love you. How could they not?

 

At 3/24/2006 4:34 PM, Blogger josh williams

SignGirl has my vote of confidance and I'm from Indiana!

 

At 3/24/2006 5:38 PM, Blogger SignGurl

I have tears in my eyes for two reasons.

First because of the friend that you are. Only you would do something (again) to make me feel better about myself. I thank you for that.

Second, I cry for the dear little girl that you were. I think you were beautiful! That smile could melt anyone's heart. I'm crying for the sad little girl in all of us who took other people's crap because of what we looked like, what we wore or how little money we had.

You and all of your readers just made my week! Thank you!

 

At 3/24/2006 7:43 PM, Blogger barman

First I think you look cute Craby. Second what an awesome person you are for doing this for Sign Gurl. I already made up my mind that you were one super person and then you go and do something like this. It is dissapointing you will not be able to be at the meetup. I would love to actually meet you.

I know Sign Gurl is concerned although I have not read her blog yet. I only met her (online) back in November and I knew right away that she was a super person that I was hoping to get to know. Even though we live close by we have not met in person. I am really looking forward to finally getting to meet her. And you know what, I happen to think you look very nice.

Anyway since I have never been a Hottie Mc Hot Hot myself sure, I pay attention to what someone looks like but that is such a small part of what I notice. And I must say there are a small handful of people that I consider me favorite people and Craby and Sign Gurl are among them. (I had to include Crabby so I can go for a ride some day in that awesome car :) just kidding)

There I go writing a short story (that is not that short) again. Craby you are an awesome person and so are you Sign Gurl. You will do great on Friday, just you watch.

 

At 3/25/2006 12:16 AM, Blogger pkeclub

Crabby, seriously there is know way you could be anything but awesome no matter what age.

 

At 3/25/2006 11:57 AM, Blogger terry

i think you're adorable in both pictures!

 

At 3/25/2006 12:50 PM, Blogger ell

i don't know you, just came by way of signgirl, but you truly are a great friend. she is lucky to have you.

 

At 3/25/2006 1:40 PM, Blogger †he Pa†rio†™

Hey! If I'd known you then, I'd have asked for a kiss. You sure grew into a beautiful flower, Crabbie. XXOO

Hi MM! XXOO

 

At 3/25/2006 1:42 PM, Anonymous Anonymous

You really are somethin' else there crabby girl.

We all loves ya !!

Sign gurl, ya don't know me of course but if ya let a little ol' thing like your size prevent ya from doing something that you know you really want to do then it seems to me that you are letting those with pre-concieved notions ~ win. YOU GO GURL !!

I'm no skinny chick either and to top it all off I'm short too. (didn't someone write a song about how much short people suck )?

 

At 3/26/2006 2:22 PM, Blogger Madame X

WOW, SG is indeed lucky to have someone like you in her corner!

Thank you because I care about SG and this post made her very happy!

PS I think you were an adorable little girl. Don't you wish the WOMAN you are now could go back in time and tell the LITTLE GIRL you were how beautiful she'd grow up to be...HEY! That was a LAND OF THE LOST episode!

Kisses
X

 

At 3/26/2006 5:17 PM, Blogger Big Pissy

What a sweet thing to do!

SignGirl is lucky to have you for a friend :)

 

At 3/26/2006 7:33 PM, Blogger Spinning Girl

Honey, you are lovely.

 

At 3/27/2006 7:37 AM, Anonymous Anonymous

Awwww! You were NOT an ugly kid!!! That is a cute pic. And so sweet of you to share the pic and your feelings.

SignGirl - I'm going to check out your blog. I hope you went to the meeting and had a wonderful time.

tina

 

At 3/27/2006 3:17 PM, Blogger Mone

You are so sweet!!!
If somebody would make fun of you we would be all here....
But then, you are such a nice Lady, you dont have this kind of visitors, at least most of the time... XOXOXO

 

At 3/27/2006 3:20 PM, Blogger Mone

Oh... I've just seen, Blug is an exeption if my spelling is right...
but dont believe him...

 

At 3/27/2006 3:53 PM, Blogger Crabby

On behalf of Sign Gurl and mini-me, a heartfelt thanks to you all. You guys are great and I'm betting Sign isn't nearly so stressed out now.

Terry, Ell, Madamn X, and Big Pissy, I'll come visit so we can get to know each other.

Blug, I have something for you, buddy.

You just wait patiently whilst I fish it out.

bwaaaaaaaaaaaa ha ha ha ha ha ha!