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On Friday I began having some kind of attacks or something. My pulse raced and I got sweaty like I'd been on the treadmill for 40 minutes. I was running errands and had to keep going to the ladies room to hide out till it passed.As many of you know I have long had a fear of dyin on the toilet or some other embarrassing place. Middle of the shopping mall would not be good. In my head I can see myself laying there dead as a Nun's love life whilst folks gather round pointing and saying things like....
Observer #1:
I can't believe she wore those pants with that shirt!"
"I can't believe she'd leave the house in that shirt at all. Are those food stains?"
Observer #2. "I guess you never know when you'll drop dead in a public place. That's why I always put on a little make up before I leave the house."
Observer #3 "Do you think we should close her mouth?"
Saleslady who knows me: "No. She wouldn't look natural with her mouth closed. It's always open."
Observer #1 again: That explains the size of her ass.
Anyway, you get the idea, right?
Friday night I had another attack and I used my blood pressure monitor to see what the damage really was that was taking place. My pulse was 160. Blood pressure 167/132 or something like that. Explains the sweating for sure. The question over the next few days has become, why is this happening?
There are a combination of things causing the problem. Allergy meds and the stress of being over-extended. I have too many things going on at one time to possibly keep up with them all.
That brings me to this blog. You mighta noticed I'm posting less and less these days. And visiting even less than that. I'm having a hard time keeping up. And since I enjoy you all so much I make a huge effort to get in here even when I know it's gonna cost me dearly on time for my projects, chores, and work load.
So I'm shutting down the field so I can catch up with myself. I can't think of any other way to manage my time problem. I've tried. But the truth is once I sit down here, it's all over. I'm in the blogs playing with you guys and nothing else gets done. I've even forgotten to feed the bird before if things are particularly perky around here. Then when I do get myself up, I look around and think.....ohhhhhh CRAP! It's just not possible for me to blog.... a little while. Like everything else, once my fingers are in it, I just dig deeper and deeper until I've lost all track of time.
I will miss you all terribly and I'll think about each of you every day for sure. But I have to "get her done" and get myself back on track. Who knows? Maybe one day I'll learn some self-control, get my stuff all caught up and come back to drive you all batty again with another blog. But waiting for me to mature and obtain any degree of self-c0ntrol.....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HA HA HA HA! Who are we kidding?
Awwwww Crabby, I'm going to really miss you being around. You are a fun person with a wacky sense of humour and that is a rarity :)
Take care of yourself.
p.s. I think G-man was calling Signgurl a bitch for beating him over something or something. I don't think he meant to call YOU a bitch lol.
Kisses Crabby and (((((((hugs)))))))
p.p.s. what were you intending to make me?
At 2/19/2007 9:01 PM, 
Cazzie!!!
Yes, catching up with yourSELF is important....
go hire this book at the library, The Power of Now by Eckhardt Tolle..it surely saved my life when I was dying in hospital...not that you are dying, but I had the same symptoms as you in conjunction with a life threatening infection and this book helped me find mySELF and look after mySELF and then you can find time later on for things like blogging.
Just make sure you post every now and again, we wanna know u are ok on this side of the planet :)
I have been missing you already but you need to do what is best for you. You will be back, I just know you will. If not then I will just have to find some other way to haunt you.
Hey with pulse and BP like that, maybe you are having reactions from Horton's...
By the way, next weekend I am making a side trip and going to bump off that mean sales lady. How dare she talk about you like that. :)
At 2/20/2007 2:35 AM, Evil Minx
Awww... Crabby! Don't go! Sod the rest of your life. Blogging is more important. I would have thought that was obvious.
Of course, i jest. I'll miss you lots. There'll be a blank spot on my Bloglines with your name on it.
Come back to us when you can, you amazing woman. And take care of yourself.
All love,
Minxy
Gareth, I should have that up by Friday...maybe Thursday. LOL!
Milky, AM TOO. For awhile. Till I have all my bases covered. No way I'm gonna stroke out. Folks who have strokes can't talk very well. Where would I be without my mouth, huh? Huh?
Cazzie, I will and thank you! I'm doing much, much better already. Blood pressure is way down. And I do plan to post occasionally till I come back. I just gotta get some focus back, you know?
Nick, I love you. But you know that, right?
Barman, I could never leave you entirely. I'm just gonna get my act together. How ever long THAT takes. (I'm a slow learner for sure) But interestingly enough...you're actually right about the caffeine. I cut way back on it and it did make a difference. So that's a beginning.
Minxy! Oh my gosh I've missed you and I lost your e-mail with my link to you in it. I'm not going anywhere completely. I'll be around. Milky wants to keep the field open till I get my feets back on solid ground. (over the years I've learned it's in my best interest to listen to the Milkmaid. She can be a real bonehead. Horrible stubborn!)
ookami, I'm happy to see you here and also happy to say, my recovery is off to a great start so far. I may do better faster than I thought. When I get it all together, I'll be back.
dzer, LOL! You give me way more credit than I deserve. You KNOW my life is all about the gaming. I'm almost afraid to look at WOW because I know I'll get hooked. And yet...I'm drawn to do it.
At 2/20/2007 3:44 PM, Spoony Quine
` I understand, Crabby. I'm going to school and my computer's been at the shop for several days, and I haven't been on the internet for evar - except for two minutes I grabbed on Kinko's yesterday (=President's day when everywhere else was closed, except for Zippy's but my gmail account, mapquest and PDF files were off-limits from there, the bastards).
` If that wasn't enough G-man is giving me kind of a hard time!
` I know you'll come back eventually, when you're not so busy. Or, you'll be back every other day at half-speed. ;)
` You know, in class, I learned that if you make a time scedule, you can set aside time. So, always know what you're gonna do. Set aside time for chores, then feed the bird, then go online for only a certain amount of time and then stop until next time!
` It's hard, but that's what I'm making myself do (when I have a computer).
Seequin, a time schedule is a very good plan. Possibly with a timer set also to remind me to get off my big butt. I also like the idea of getting the work done first. That way it isn't hanging over my head.
You're awfully smart for such a young pup.
I love you kiddo. And I promise. Pinky swear. I won't die in the immediate future. I have every intention of living to 130. It's a goal.
At 2/20/2007 4:50 PM, BTExpress
My oral surgeon checked my blood pressure some years ago and it was 225/125. She though that was a tad too high, so called my doctor and made me go see him right away. A few weeks later and after numerous visits to a cardiologist, I was taking five different meds to keep it under control. I'm still alive, so I guess they're doing their job.
One more suggestion about the dieing in public thingy. Better never wear a dress or skirt when you go out, or.............
Observer #4: I wonder what color undies she's wearing.
Just kidding, I'm sure nobody would ever do that. ;-)
BT, You beat my blood pressure score. LOL! If I had a skirt on when I dropped dead, with my luck, I'd be wearin my raggedy unders with the air hole in back. (no. I didn't blow it out)
Milky, yes, you are! Stubborn stubborn stubborn. You know it's true.
G, I'm northwest in Ohio and there's snow every where you look. I got tired of lookin at it so I put up a different pic. Although....I do have some green leaves. Swear. No idea why they are. They just never died or something. Maybe I should eat 'em.
LeeAnn, thanks kiddo! I am much, much better now. Coming right along. I don't think it'll take long at all for me to be back up and and running full speed again. I bounce good.
Milky, geezLOO"FEAKIN"eeze! Will you stop rummagin thru my junk till I'm dead. Get your fingers outa there! GO ON! GET!
Heyyyyyy! Where'd my monkey bookends go?
MILKY! YOU COME BACK HERE, RIGHT NOW, MISSY!
Barman, what a great idea. You guys can come here and we can party without me ever breakin a sweat. LOL!
ps. Bring food.
Suze, I won't be off that long. Just till I get my sea legs back. I mean...check this out...here I am again today. Pathetic, isn't it? But I did do my work first and I have taken allllll my medicine and junk. I'm a good girl.
It's very hard to manage time when you have lots to do. I'm sure you are having trouble keeping up because you have so many people who come to visit you.
I missed a whole slew of comments. (it's probably cuz I'm dying. Hang on. I'll catch up.)
G, it IS an oreck. I like it cuz it's light and I can carry it up and down the steps easy.
Manny, that proves to me you're gettin old. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh ha ha ha ha ha! (don't you dare hit me. I'm dyin)
Cazzie, I am doing really well. I'm surprised how fast I'm mending.
Sign, I love you more. :)
Angela, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh ha ha ha ha ha! EXACTLY! You get up out of your chair, look around and think, what thee hell happened to this place?
G, I knew you didn't. LOL! I was havin fun with ya. Dead ass, huh? That's the one part of me that has no trouble movin all over the place all by itself. (this is not a good thing)
Check your shoes before you leave.
I didn't read this because I'm trying to beat Gman! I did it!!!